And yet another foot update...

Okay, so I went to my foot Dr.'s yet again to see what we were going to do. He basically acted the exact same way he did at my first appt. As a matter of fact he gave me the same schpeal as the first time. He talked about medication and I finally said "wait, I've been on the medication for almost 2 weeks, and it's doing NOTHING!" So he then says "Oh, okay" So, he continues that I can try orthodics, get cortisone shots, or surgery. But it's totally up to me. He wasn't telling me anything else. So I say, orthodics could or couldn't fix the issue and since my insurance doesn't cover them I'd be paying $300.00 to "maybe' fix my problem. Cortisone shots, would only be a temporary fix. So obviously surgery would be the way to go. Right? He says thats up to you. I'm wanting to hit the guy by now. This is your job to help me figure out what needs to be done right? So then his nurse fills me in on the surgery more. I would need to take a week off of work for the first week, because supposedly its not good to come to work on pain killers (who knew?) I wouldn't be able to drive for 2 weeks b/c its my right foot. (I already drive like a psycho, it might be in my favor to drive with my left) Then the nurse tells me that I will have a wire inserted in my foot and in two weeks after surgery they would remove it in the office. (I know!) But reassured me that it doesn't hurt at all. Because Im sure she's had this done, right! So needless to say I am going to see another Dr. and get a second opinion, My hubby thinks I should see a sports medicine dr. that could possibly give me better options or at least help me out a little better as to what's best for my situation. Me on the other hand I want to get this show on the road so I can get back to running. It's going to be getting nice out and I'm going to be sitting outside wishing I could run!!!

Foot Update

So I went to my foot Dr. yesterday, to find out that I have a bunionette. Not a bunion, but a bunion-ette lol. I have always thought that a bunion was a type of callus or something and its so not. A bunion is bigger and on the inside of your foot and a bunionette is on the outside by your pinky toes. He said I also have a bunion on the same foot but its not bad. He took some x-rays and then filled me in on what procedures he could do. First of course are the meds. I have 2 perscriptions that I have to take to hopefully make it stop hurting and not swelled anymore. He said I would have to be getting orthodics. They do shots too, which I wouldn't need right then, but possibly next time. (YIKES) Then would be surgery where he would cut a pie shape out of my bone and then I would have to wear a cast or shoe thing and be on crutches. I am scared to death because he made it sound like this could really be a possibility. I have never had surgery besides my tonsils when I was in second grade. I am also a big baby lol. Oh and my main bitch, I can't run for like 4 days. This is a HUGE issue for me because I was doing so good with my running and now this. Which I guess I want it to be all done and over with. I have Relay for Life coming up the end of May, and I want to be able to walk with no problems. Last year, I had bronchitis and my dr. told me NOT to walk in it at all. I still did though b/c I got all caught up in the whole experience. Plus there were people there that had is way worse than me. So I will keep updates coming with my stupid foot. On a good note, I am maintaining my ll lbs. down, so that's good right? :)

Dear Boss

Dear Boss, First I dont get my fucking raise bc the owner is a Fuck Face. Second, you buy easter candy for everyone in the office but me, to do me a favor bc I dont eat the shit. Well news to you it would be a nice gesture to maybe find something else or something. Then you point it out that you didnt get me shit.... Hmmmm.. Ive fucking noticed. This doesnt help matters bc I have to eat AFTER 4:00 bc of my drs appt. FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR DAMN CANDY!!!! You are also watching what you are eating so you better than anyone knows what its like to have it in your DAMN face and not be able to eat it. I hope the candy is rotten and you all get sick for eating it in front of me!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you and Fuck Off!!!!!

P.S. Is it really necessary to list the kind of candy in the tall jar you have sitting behind me? Butterfingers, Reeses, Milkyway ect. I feel like Im on boiling points.

Damn Foot

Okay, okay I know its been almost a week and I got everyone all pumped up for me to run 5 miles straight or whatever. I have been having this foot "issue". I am affraid to put my shoes on let alone run right now. It has developed this "bulge" on the outside of my foot that is so painful. I do have a dr.'s appointment today. I am secretly scared he's going to tell me he has to drain shit out of it. :( I will cry seriously. I go today at 4:00, I am hoping he will have it all fixed so I can actually run and kick some ass. It is really killing me not to be running, because I feel like I'm going backwards, after my mile straight run. I will stay focused and motivated and keep kicking my own ass lol. This whole foot issue isn't fun though because I can tell that I am walking differant and its starting to hurt my whole foot. At first I thought that I was just being a wuss and it was apart of running, but then I actually checked it out and I knew that it's not normal for it to look like that. I feel like Adam Sandler in Mr. Deed's with the crazy foot. (It's not THAT BAD I swear, but I am affraid it will end up like that. If I don't get it taken care of) I will update my freaky foot issue, when I find out what the funk it is. I hope its not a tumah!!!!!

Getting There

Let me start off by saying, I have never been into the whole running thing. I've played sports that you're chasing a ball or something. I've NEVER been one to run for fun. Now after having my daughter who is 7, I want to be a positive role model for her and show her how beneficial being healthy and in shape it is for yourself. Also, I would like to be in great shape as I get older, so when she has her own family, I can keep up with my grandkids. Anywho, I have decided that I will run for fun and enjoy it. I'm not going to lie, at first I so did not enjoy it. I did however know that I need to get through the hard part of being out of shape and get to where I needed to be. So, this brings me to lastnight, I was doing my usual stretching and told my self I will run 1 mile straight no stopping. So I did my warm up and then started my run. I will tell you too, I had thoughts going through my head of why I should slow down and walk. But I didn't, I kept on running and I did it. I have never been more proud of myself. I wanted to tell everyone, as a matter of fact once I finished my workout, I called my mom lol. This totally shows me that I can do it if I set my mind to it. I know that 1 mile is like nothing for alot of people, but it is just a stepping stone for me and I want to do a 5k then maybe a half marathon or something. I totally admire the people who just kick ass and run 3-4 miles or more daily. I am working on that for myself.